Some History Involving The Massachusetts General Hospital

Taken from The Evolution of Modern Medicine by Dr. William Osler © 2009 through Kaplan Publishing, New York.

“The end of the fifth decade [of the 19th century] is marked by a discovery of superme importance.  Humphry Davy had noted the effects of nitrous oxide.  The exhilarating influence of sulphuric ether had been casually studied, and Long of Georgia had made patients inhale the vapor until anaesthetic and had performed operations upon them when in this state; but it was not unitil October 16, 1846, in the Massachusetts General Hospital, that Morton, in a public operating room, rendered a patient insensible with ether and demonstrated the utility of surgical anaesthesia.  The rival claims of priority no longer interest us, but the occasion is one of the most memorable in the history of the race.  It is well that our colleagues celebrate Ether Day in Boston — no more precious boon has ever been granted to suffering humanity.

“In 1857, a young man, Louis Pasteur, sent to the Lille Scientific Society a paper on “Lactic Acid Fermentation” and in December of the same year presented to the Academy of Sciences in Paris a paper on “Alcoholic fermentation” in which he concluded that “the deduplication of sugar into alcohol and carbonic acid is correlative to a phenomenon of life.”  A new era in medicine dates from those two publications.  The story of Pasteur’s life should be read by every student.  It is one of the glories of human literature, and, as a record of achievement and of nobility of character, is almost without an equal.

“At the middle of the last century [20th] we did not know much more of the actual causes of the great scourges of the race, the plagues, the fevers and the pestilences, than did the Greeks.  Here comes Pasteur’s great work.  Before him Egyptians darkness; with his advent a light that brightens more and more as the years give us ever fuller knowledge.  The facts that fevers were catching, that epidemics spread, that infection could remain attached to articles of clothing, etc., all gave support to the view that the actual cause was something alive, a contagion vivum.  It was really a very old view, the germs of which may be found in the Fathers, but which was first clearly expressed–so far as I know–by Fracastorius, the Veronese physician, in the sixteenth century, who spoke of the seeds of contagion passing from one person to another; and he first drew a parallet between the processes of contagion and the fermentation of wine.  This was more than one hundred years befor Kircher, Leeuwenhock and others began to use the microscope and to see animalcula, etc., in water, and so give a basis for the “infinitely little” view of the nature of disease germs.  And it was a study of the processes of fermentation that led Pasteur to the sure ground on which we now stand.”

This leads me to ask: Is diabetes due to a germ, an ‘animalcula?

As history repeats itself, I find this passage hopeful toward the cure of diabetes. As Massachusetts General Hospital is renowned for its research – among many other research facilities – it may be in the history books again with the cure!  I look forward to and await its arrival.

Cordially, A. K. Buckroth www.mydiabeticsoul.com

 

Me and My Money…a child’s story of diabetes

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Copyrighted in 2012, Me & My Money…a child’s story of diabetes, took two years to write…

From birthing thoughts, jotting ideas, typing a manuscript, carrying a daily journal, contacting an illustrator,  building the manuscript, proofreading and editing again and again and again and…you get the idea…this dream came to fruition.  It had do be done.  There is no other book like it — as far as my research goes — that reflects, mimics, or encourages diabetic children, T1Ds.  The book is now available to the general public in paperback form.  Celebrate!!

Submitting to a marketable world with a targeted audience, networking, promoting, speaking, through the main character, Kali with her dog, Money, brings attention to the increase of diabetes in animals – up 300% this past decade!

Through the wonderful insightfulness of illustrator Amy Pichly-Meyer who is responsible for the clarity of expression with the cover design, along with all 37 colored  illustrations, this book was built for you.  I am thankful for her friendship and abilities.

Briefly, the main character, Kali, is presently a fourth grader.  She was diagnosed with diabetes at the age of two.  Her rapid growth with blooming and wizened independence results from learning how to take care of herself.  Wayne, a best friend, knows her very well and together they embark on adventures through Wayne’s hobby, their separate and shared responsibilities, mutual friends, and more.  But Kali cannot forget her special pack!  She must carry this with her everyday, everywhere.

This book, along with the recent publication of Me & My Money Too…a child’s story with diabetes, are tools to understanding this disease.  Minute-by-minute self-care is introduced and forthcoming in this illustrated, easy-to-read chapter book, 104 pages long, appropriate for 8 years olds and available at Amazon.com in paperback edition as well as Kindle e-readers.   Local bookstores carry copies as well as local libraries with requests.  Please enjoy the following Chapter excerpts…

Chapter 1, Book One

Due to keeping up with my chores, I occasionally have some change in my pocket.  That’s because my parents give me a weekly allowance that I can spend when I want.

“Make sure you spend wisely,’ Dad says.  I’m not quite sure what “spend wisely” means, but I think I do okay with what I have.  For instance, one of my friends from school, Wayne, asked me to go to the hobby store one Saturday afternoon.  Because it is school summer vacation time, we could go almost any time, depending on our parents.  However, Saturday’s are best.

Wayne and I go way back, to kindergarten.  He is the only red-head kid in our whole grammar school, never mind our fourth grade.  He’s a full blown carrot top with thick hair in wavy curls.  This makes him real easy to spot in a crowd.  The girls in our class like Wayne more than the boys do.  I think this is because he has good manners and is polite.  It is either that or his clear sky blue eyes that sparkle.  Even his eyelashes are orange, matching his hair.  Most girls I know like blue eyes.  I never thought about it much.  My eyes are dark brown to match my light brown and blonde streaky hair.

Wayne is a pale looking kid.  Most of the time, the only color on Wayne’s face is because of his tannish-brown colored freckles.  I swear, if he didn’t have freckles, he would be white as a ghost!  I tease him about that, pretending that I can’t see him sometimes.  We laugh.  He blushes all red and pink.  It’s funny to see.  Wayne is shorter than I am — for now.  He teases me about my long brown hair — so flat, so straight and thin.  “There’s nothing to your hair,” he tells me as he quickly flicks it in the air.  “You don’t even have to brush it.  Your hair just hangs there off your fat head,” he often tells me as if I need to be reminded. 

I think Wayne is jealous of my straight hair.  Brushing his hair is a struggle because it is very thick.  Mine is a lot easier because it is stick straight.  He hates when his mother brushes his hair because “she always pulls it out of my head,” he told me one time.  “And you have a chubby little pug-nose.  Not like my pointy one at all,” he compares.  “But you get a tan in the summer.  I don’t tan, I burn.  It’s awful,” he explains.  That is true.

One summer that I remember, his mother covered his face and arms with white suntan lotion so  he wouldn’t get burned while playing with me in my back yard.  He looked so funny.  That stuff made him smell like the beach.  I laughed at him.  He didn’t like that.  And after a while, the suntan lotion disappeared.  But we stayed friends.  He wears that stuff all the time.  Sure, I use it too, but when I forget to rub it on my skin, I don’t get too worried.

“I guess you look like your father,” I told him because I think he does.  “I look like my mother,” I said.  And that’s okay with me because my mother is beautiful.  My Dad’s okay looking — for a Dad.  Sometimes he has a moustache.  Mom told him to shave it off because it made her sneeze when they kiss.  Eeeuu!  Sneezing and kissing, yuck!

“Kali,” my mom called up the stairs.  “Wayne is on the phone for you.”

“Okay.  Thanks.  I’ll get it up here,” I told her.

“Hi Wayne.  Wassup?”

“Hey.  Can you come to the train store with me today or what?  I’m looking for a certain model train engine and I think the Viking Hobby Store will have it.”

Well, I have no particular interest in model trains, so I knew I wouldn’t buy anything but I would go along with him anyway.  This is a wise decision.  After all, he is my very best friend.  Very best friends do things for each other whether we need to or like to or not.  It was Saturday morning anyway.  Cleaning my room could wait until I got back.  I was thinking, planning.

“Mom, Dad, is it okay with you if I go to the hoppy store with Wayne today?  He thinks he found the perfect train engine for his set.  He wants me to go and help him check it out.”

“I don’t mind.  Is your room picked up?” Mom asked.

“Not all the way yet, Mom,” I replied.  “I can finish when I get back.  All I have to do is fold my clothes and put them away.  A load of my socks and some t-shirts are still in the dryer.”

“Well, all right.  Did you ask your father?” Mom wanted to know.  “And don’t forget to take a snack and some juice boxes with you.”

“I know.  I already have a pack of peanut butter nabs in my sack with some water.  I don’t know where Dad is.  I thought he was in the kitchen with you.  Maybe he’s in the garage.”

“Okay,” continued my mother.  “If you don’t see your father on your way out, I’ll tell him.  If you do, please remind him that we’re going shopping today.  Oh, are you and Wayne taking your bikes or walking?”

“I think we’ll walk.”  And out the back door I went.

Chapter 2

Wayne lives four houses away from me.  I took the short-cut over to his house through a wildflower field.  I often come here to pick my mother some flowers.  I like to pick flowers for her.  There are all kinds of wildflowers in this field: yellow ones, pink ones, purple ones with yellow centers.  I don’t know the names of these flowers, I just know they are pretty and Mom likes them.

After I met Wayne on the front porch of his house, we proceeded to walk to this particular ‘train store’ as he calls it.  It is really a hobby store that has lots of other things of interest besides trains.  I’ve been in there with one of my older cousins.  She was looking for some particular, special types of paint brushes made with camel’s hair.  I thought that was cool — paint brushes made out of a camel’s hair!  There are small glider planes in this store with hand-held motor devices; there are different kinds of wood burners and wood carving tools; there are even lots of different colored rubber fish bait things — lures.  I liked those because they are shiny, squishy, and they squiggle.  Things that would attract a fish — go figure!  Wayne had been going on about a certain model train engine he saw in here a while ago.  It took him weeks and weeks to save up his allowance money to buy it.

“Hey, before we walk too far, is your insulin pump filled up?” Wayne asked.  “I hope it doesn’t beep like crazy while we are out.  I would hate to have to leave early so you could fix it.”

“Yes, it’s fine.  I filled it up with insulin yesterday morning and changed the needle site.  We are good to go!”  I planned this on purpose.  I knew he would ask.  I am diabetic.  Wayne knows.  Among many other things, I do take care of myself and my diabetes.  I have to test my blood sugar levels many times each day.  Diabetes is a disease that causes me not to digest food properly.  Because of that, I wear an insulin pump.  I used to have to take insulin shots before I got the pump.  Having the pump is much easier.  An insulin pump squirts insulin into my body, automatically, a tiny bit at a time.  A “squirt” is maybe the size of a pencil tip or the size of a period at the end of a sentence.  My parents had to give me insulin shots before I learned to give them myself.  I still keep syringes handy, in case the pump breaks down for whatever reason.  This is called having “Plan B” which is important. 

Read more of Kali’s young life with diabetes in “Me & My Money…a child’s story of diabetes.”  Available at Amazon.com.

A 50 Year Medal

I am happy to share with you that I have been “awarded a 50-year Bronze Medal and Certificate to recognize the remarkable achievement of a successful life with insulin-dependent diabetes for half a century or more” from the Joslin Diabetes Center in Boston, Massachusetts.  How many people do you know that have done that?  I hope to be an inspiration to every diabetic as well as every person that has to deal with a life-threatening, terminal, disease.

Everyone knows someone with diabetes.

But everyone does NOT know about the Joslin Diabetes Center.   This fact continues to amaze me since the organization was founded in 1952.  The only one of its kind at the time, other organizations have repeatedly bloomed with the same underlying goal – raise money toward research for a cure of diabetes.

With that being said (written), here “are some facts about Joslin Diabetes Center’s Medal Program.  The awards are presented on an ongoing basis to people with diabetes who have been insulin-dependent continuously for at least 25 years.”

“* To date there have been approximately 2,663 50-Year Medals awarded by Joslin Diabetes Center since the program started in 1970.”

“* Since the program began, in addition to the above, over 648 certificates have been awarded to people who have been insulin-dependent for 25 to 49 years.”

“* Joslin Diabetes Center has awarded 50-Yeart medals medals to recipients throughout the world, including individuals from Australia, Brazil, Canada, England, Hungary, Japan, Netherlands, Pakistan, Philippines, Russia, South America, Spain, Sweden, and Switzerland.”  I like to include myself here, as a representative of the United States — California distinctly.

“* [The Joslin Diabetes Center] has awarded 26 distinctive 75-Year medals.  Recipients of this special honor include the following people in the United States: a man from Massachusetts in 1996; a man from Rhode Island  in 1999; a Florida woman in 2001; a Connecticut woman and a Washington state man — both in 2002; a Pennsylvania woman, a Georgia man, a Wisconsin woman, a Virginian man, Indiana woman and New York man in 2003; a New Zealand woman also in 2003; men from Ohio, Massachusetts, New York,and Pennsylvania in 2004; and a woman from Maryland in 2005; men from Massachusetts, New York and a woman from Washington state in 2006.”

You see, there is hope for a long, successful and progressive life with this disease.  But work has to be done.  A commitment to ones’ self has to be made.  The inspiration is you!

For more information about the medal/certificate program, contact:

Joslin Diabetes Center, Medalist Study, One Joslin Place, Boston, MA, 02215

Phone: (617) 713-3481; Fax: (617) 713-3483; E-mail: medalist@joslin.harvard.edu.

Good Luck!

A Wonderful Experience!

Overdue for a wonderful experience, a special time with my husband, I have recently been blessed and able to experience a number of wonderful experiences in just two days.  I am so happy and excited about this adventure that I need to share it with you…

As my birthday is also our wedding anniversary, 1991, that day was a Saturday this year, January 2013.  Having a birthday on a Saturday is extra-special in this house = no having to report to the office, no pressing issues or errands that cannot wait, no having to be apart from each other.  It could be a perfect gift to ourselves, a renwal, as long as we remain light-hearted in our spontaneity .

Knowing these especially personal events were going to be on a Saturday, my gracious husband asked the magic question: “What do you want to do for your birthday?”

“Well, hon,” I responded, “seeing as these celebrations are on a Saturday, why don’t we go for ride, go on an adventure, maybe get lost, have a picnic, let’s drive around Lake Tahoe.”\  We’ve never been there or done that, how does that sound to you?  Nothing expensive.  Simply wander and wonder in nature.  Just for the day.  The most expensive part of this road trip will be the gas.”

“Mm, I like that,” he said.  “I’ll do some internet research, get a map, and see if anything special is going on like a show or a concert.”

With that plan in mind, I shared this with a few nearby friends.  Cindy, a hotel manager, offered to get us a free hotel room in Reno, NV.  With that in mind and highly excited with her gift, I accepted and reservations were made.  We would be able to stay in Reno, Nevada, overnight.  A dog-lover by nature, Cindy also volunteered to dog-sit.  You know, came in a few times a day to play with both of our dogs, feed them twice a day, and enjoy them.  As the dogs are familiar with her, they were actually delighted!  Ahh, the blessings began!

The car is packed with our warm, bulky winter jackets, duffel bags with clothes and toiletries, a change of shoes-from-snow-boots, a cooler with sandwiches, drinks, and insulin, we headed up the Sierra Mountain Range.  By the time we were at 4,000 feet, my ears were popping.  Not unusual.  I just had not experienced this in a while.    Walls of snow along the highways’ edge gradually grew from 4′ to 8′ as we continued.  Nice.  Althought the snow was dirty, it was nice to see it once again.  It had been a long time.  Maybe two years since we ventured into the mountains for the purpose of playing in the snow, experiencing it.

Our first stop was Emerald Bay (http://www.vikingsholm.org/history%20of%20eb.html).  Intrigued by the name and the little we know of its history, we exited the highway to see what was to be seen, if anything.  The day was superbly clear and bright, the temperature no higher that 40 degrees at 1:00 in the afternoon.  As this specific area was closed to traffic and pedestrians for the season, we parked along the roadside with many other curiousity seekers and walked a deep, snow-filled path through the woods.  A breathtaking view atop a special spot overlooking Lake Tahoe was magnificent!  No, we didn’t take pictures.  We didn’t have to.  These pictures will stay in our hearts and memories.  Ahh, take a deep breath.  Fill your lungs with cold fresh air; exhale; greedily inhale the majesty again.  That ‘s what we did.

Okay.  Reverie over, stomachs growling, we returned to the car for the purposely prepared picnic lunch.  Gosh, the cliche remains true about an adventure sparking ones’ appetite.  It did for us!  Before gobbling, however, an insluin injection must precede this submarine sandwich stuffed with fresh vegetables.  Not a problem.  It’s my life with diabetes.

Slowly traversing down the winding mountain road, ears popping once again, we are back on the highway heading toward Reno, Nevada.  As check in time was 3:00pm, we had plenty of time, not rushing for anything.  Upon arriving, we found the hotel room to be exsquisitely furnished with a refrigerator, stove, cooking utensils and the like.  After all, it is an Extended Stay America Hotel (http://www.extendedstayhotels.com/Reservations/SelectRoom.html?sid=70c6e015-b611-4600-9fcd-99a614952d1d).

Once rested after this part of the four-hour drive, we changed clothes into something more special, formal.  We didn’t know where we were to end up and wanted to be ready.  This part of the adventure brought us to the Peppermill Casino (http://www.peppermillreno.com/?utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_term=regional&utm_campaign=general%2Bbranded&gclid=CM2kq5a1kLUCFYp_QgodEzUASg).  Unfamiliar with its acoutrements, we hungrily wandered the active premises looking for a “nice place to dine.”  Coming upon “Biminis Steakhouse” (http://www.peppermillreno.com/dining/fine-dining/bimini-steakhouse/), we approached the maitre’d for seating.  “Do you have reservations?” she asked.  “No, we don’t,” I answered.  “I wasn’t aware that reservations were required.  But today is my birthday and our wedding anniversary.  We were walking by and thought this would be a perfect setting for us to celebrate.”

“Well, okay.  Let me see what I can do,” she responded as she overlooked the available table spaces.  “Here we go.  I have an opening overlooking the pool with its fountain near a window.”

Me & My Money…a child’s story of diabetes

Copyrighted in 2012, Me & My Money…a child’s story of diabetes, took two years to write.

From birthing thoughts, jotting ideas, typing a manuscript, carrying a daily journal, contacting an illustrator,  building the manuscript, proofreading and editing again and again and again and…you get the idea…this dream came to fruition.  It had do be done.  There is nothing like it — as far as my research could go — that reflects, mimics, or encourages diabetic children.  This manuscript is now available to the general public in paperback form.  Celebrate!!

Submitting to a marketable world with a targeted audience, networking, promoting, speaking, scheduling, relenting, sacrificing, etc., continues to gain a wide and attentive audience.  From what I have been told repeatedly, this is the first book of its kind — reflecting the insights of a juvenile diabetic, a T1, a T1D.

Briefly, the main character, Kali, is presently a fourth grader.  She was diagnosed with diabetes at the age of two.  Her rapid growth with blooming and wizened independence results from learning how to take care of herself.  Wayne, a best friend, knows her very well and together they embark on adventures through Wayne’s hobby, their separate and shared responsibilities, mutual friends, and more.  But Kali cannot forget her special pack!  She must carry this with her every day, everywhere.  What’s in this special pack?  You can only imagine!

Through the wonderful insightfulness of illustrator Amy Pichly-Meyer who is responsible for the clarity of expression with the cover diesign, along with all 37 colored  illustrations, this book was built for you.  I am thankful for her friendshop and abilities.

My “IT Guy” and husband, Wayne Ross, mind-boggled through the computer and its typical moodiness —  with patience — to get what was needed, what was distinctly preferred.  Amazing work with quality brought me a keen sense of empowerment for the world-public.  I am grateful.  I could never have done what he did to get this into print.  After all, frustration is part of any job and greatly disliked!

The above introduction highlights this delightful family-and-children’s book.  It will be available for puchase August 16, 2013.  Colorfully pictured, it is a 107-page, lightweight paperback book with  ISBN 978 1490354873 for your convenience.  Yes, it is available via e-readers.  However, and unknown to me at the time of submittal, e-readers to do not show the illustrations in color, only black & white.  It’s cheaper that way, truth be told.

“Me & My Money Too…a child’s story with diabetes” is soon to follow with “Kisses for Cash…a child’s story about diabetes.”  I know you will enjoy reading this in all its formats as much as I enjoyed writing it (them)!  Please leave a review.  And you are always welcome and encouraged to leave a comment.

Thank you and take care…important words to live with.

A. K. Buckroth, Award-Winning Author     www.mydiabeticsoul.com      Global Diabetes Awareness Advocate     Public Speaker by Appointment.

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Chapter 5, “This Little Light Of Mine…”

 

Chapter 5

“This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine…”

a long, long time.

 

   Summers at the Clara Barton Birthplace Camp in North Oxford, Massachusetts, were the highlight of my childhood.

Recalling at the age of six the first time my mother brought me there I was overwhelmed and speechless. There were actually other children – my age and size – that had diabetes too! They were walking around with their parents and brothers and sisters just as I was! Introductions were made and friendships were immediately established if you were going to be in the same cabin as I! Immediately nicknamed “Andy” with my approval, that is who I became, “Andy.”

I was excited. “Elated” is probably a better word. You see, a non-diabetic person has to realize the queerness of this disease in 1964. Ostracized by classmates at a young age, I began a life of secrecy as mentioned earlier. Not only did people not know of my diabetes, but it never did imprint itself in label form on any part of my body. Nor was I an unusual shade of color. Therefore, I appeared and seemed to be a happy, beautifully normal, healthy child.

Within these neatly lawned grounds, there were others like me!  Kids! My age!

The history behind this camp is short but succinct, beginning in 1932. Clara Barton, a well-acknowledged Civil War nurse, was born here in 1821. Ms. Barton’s claim to fame was her founding the American Red Cross organization through her compassionate humanitarianism. Being a Universalist, her Church purchased the 96 acres of land for use for inner-city youths. With Dr. Elliott P. Joslin’s dedication to diabetic children as far back as 1921, these combined efforts and knowledge led to the creation of The Clara Barton Birthplace Camp. I am honored to have been a part of this endeavor.

Liz Sonneborn.  Clara Barton Founder, American Red Cross; © 1992. Barton Center for Diabetes Education. (Wikipedia, the free [internet] encyclopedia.)

My first year there, I was assigned to a twin bunk in one of five cottages.  This one was called “Squirrels Nest.” This cottage allowed eight girls aged six and seven, to sleep and keep their things. All the cabins were basic and hollow wooden structures without foundations, having three rooms each. Two larger rooms at opposite ends of the cabin housed four twin bunk beds for four girls and their belongings; the middle space housed two twin bunk beds, one for each of two counselors and their belongings. All eight girls and two councilors became team members, buddies, pals, and caretakers of each other in this small, colorful learning and happy place. We were to live together for three weeks amidst nature.

This was my first experience with summer camp and being away from home. I was excited and happy to be away. Eight more summers were to follow. Each of these summers housed me and other diabetic girls of the same age. As I grew, I was able to experience similar comforts of cabin lodgings inside “Seaside Lagoon,” “Wind-in-the-Pines,” “Lakeside,” “Rainbow Ridge,” or “Shang-Ri-La.” Purposely placed among the lush green acres of the area and surrounding the camp’s pond, I shared my young life in many of these cabins with exploitive and explosive energy. Years later as an older camper, a teenager, I was housed with others of my age in tents on wooden platforms across the road and up a long rock lined dirt path in the woods.

 

   Each camper was supplied with her very own trunk specifically in tow with the ‘summer wardrobe at camp,’ following the directions of an ‘inventory list.’ Trunks were neatly kept at the foot of each bunk-bed. However, these trunks always held much more than a wardrobe. Consider the special quilt patched by a mother or grandmother; or the new supply of stationery with stamps and pens and pencils; pictures of other family members; stuffed animals and favorite dolls of comfort; maybe a few books so as not to forget the school book reports due in the fall. Packable love represented by endearing objects.

Awakened each morning at seven o’clock to the trumpeting sound of the American militaristic revelry was performed by a councilor, Debby. Campers – all campers – were trained to quickly grab their assigned “pee pots” and proceed to the restroom for a “fasting glucose test.” We were instantly mobilized!

Conveniently stored under each child’s bunk for safekeeping, the precise purpose of a “pee pot” was for glucose testing via a urine specimen before each meal. This determined the amount of insulin required for each young body to balance her food intake, insulin amount, and the scheduled exercise programs.

The chilly morning air awakened and encouraged this responsibility to our selves. Covered in goose bumps, the sparkling morning dew remained asleep on the grass carpet until all the children clomped over it to the lavatory. Sleepy heads had no choice but to awaken. Parading through the lawn with dews’ heavy wetness as it sparkled in the sunrise was enough to keep me alert and careful not to slip. It was cold and wet! Oftentimes I wore my slippers during this march because they were ready and waiting for me aside my bunk. My tennis shoes just took too long to find, put on, and tie the laces. Each and every camper was assigned a clear plastic “pee pot.” We had to carefully balance those pots, and ourselves, to accomplish this first task of the day.

The “pee pot” was essentially used for urine glucose testing four times each day during the duration of her stay. The design of the pee pots were exactly those containers used for potty training little kids – a hard, sturdy, clear plastic container with a handle for ease in dumping out the contents in a toilet. I know. I had one at home along with my baby sister who was being potty-trained.

Imagine eight 6 year-old girls awakened at 7:00am, in slippers and pajamas, trying ever so carefully to scurry across the wet lawn to the large lavatory building, bringing their morning “fasting” samples for glucose testing. Not all made it, having slipped in the dew or tripped over themselves, spilling the contents. We often bumped into each other, our eyes on the containers and not on who was in front of us. “Eeck, you just spilled on me!” was often heard. “You poured some on my slippers!” cried another. Mayhem with bad feelings occurred with the councilors having to step up and keep everyone calm and orderly to accomplish this task. We were encouraged to hurry because the older kids were coming for the same reason, with the same type of containers, and they did not like little kids in their way!

This accidental sloshing and oftentimes splattering of urine by these half-awakened walking youths did not halt time for embarrassment. This was a daily routine. Four times a day – before breakfast, lunch, supper, and bedtime snack. Occasionally, a child was required to test more often due to the brittleness of her disease, the adjustment of a new routine or a new type of insulin, and/or another of many of life’s emotional quandaries. All this was taken into consideration for the days’ insulin amount and requirement. It had to be. Growing pangs, puberty, and etceteras were taken into consideration depending upon the specific phase of life. It was your life, your body, and you had to learn to grow with it, live with it, and take care of it.

There were hundreds of pee pots shelved in this huge, colorless and windowless restroom during any one day. At night, before scrambling under bed covers, each child returned her personal pee pot under her bunk in her appropriate cabin. I always made sure mine was kept under my bunk next to my slippers and all ready for the next mornings’ fasting.

Once inside this cold, grey, concrete slab building, two or three older girls were seated behind a metal table top built out of one wall. They watched and heard all of this commotion each morning. These characters may have changed but the lingo remained the same. “Watch it!” one girl would scream before getting a pee pot spilled on her. “Be careful!” Due to the outside grassy wetness having been brought inside by many pairs of shoes, the lavatory floor became a slippery, sloshy mess. It was the responsibility of these two or three older girls to label each child’s pot with the child’s name in heavy black magic marker. Then they took samples with an eye dropper device, placing the sample in a clear glass vial and dropping in a Clinitest tablet. I never waited for my glucose results. I was too hungry and wanted to get up the hill to the mess hall for breakfast. But first, I had to return to the cabin to get dressed.

One-gallon, clear plastic, 24-hour urine bottles also took up space above the pee pot shelves.  These were for the use of collecting any campers’ urine over a period of 24 hours to ensure proper kidney function. Those large bottles were an implied sign: if another camper had to use one of those, it meant she could have the first signs of the complication of kidney disease. No, I did not know what a kidney was or what it did, but I overheard enough conversations that a person’s kidney was very important and had to be taken care of.

That lavatory building often stank! If the lingering smell of urine and Magic Marker didn’t wake you up, then the replacement scent of bleach and antiseptic sure would! I experienced these scents every day. The lavatory’s smell of chlorine and disinfectant mixed with Magic Marker fumes rekindles memories.

Staying three weeks at a time for the next nine summers of my life, a new “pee pot” container greeted me every year, always the same design. There was nothing creative about them! Over the course of time, the one I used at home was replaced every two or three years. If the plastic started yellowing and cracking, that was a sure sign that it was on its way to the trash.

On the camp grounds was the original barn – still standing – and used on the weekends for the campers’ dances and other activities popular to the time. Although my mother taught me how to polka, that was inappropriate for the pop music at camps’ social dances. Therefore, I learned how to dance by watching the older kids and councilors dance. The older ones would encourage the younger ones to dance with them, showing them how to coordinate their feet, arms, hips and whole body to music. One summer, a donated trampoline was set up in this barn for all of us campers to enjoy. That was my first and only experience of playing on a trampoline. It was fun jumping and flying through the air while kicking and twisting before landing in a bounce on the trampoline.

In my early teen years, aged 13 – 14 as a camper, a group of us had a sarcastic saying to “normal” people, usually adults: “Can’t you see I’m green?! You should know that diabetics are green!!” Budding New England sarcasm among budding teenage girls is a wonderful learning experience, however rude to those whom are not in on the conversation. Later known as “peer pressure,” I remain glad to have been a part of it!

The summation of life at Clara Barton Camp (CBC) encouraged a positive outlook toward a fuller life for juvenile diabetics. It is now called “The Barton Center for Diabetes Education, Inc., Inspiring Children, Empowering Families.”

Upon returning home one summer, my mother was excited about a new innovation she had learned about called “destrostix.” Purposefully used for the testing of sugar levels in a persons’ urine, their container was comparable to the container size of swimming pool and/or hot tub water testing strips. Yes, they had to be peed upon. Well, I did not like that at all. Having to hold a strip in mid-stream caused me to have too many accidents where I ended up peeing on my fingers. Forget it!

 

   When it came to camp life, it was really an escape for me. It was also acceptable in the sense that my mother greatly encouraged my going away for three weeks. My brother and sisters knew it was important for me to go away to learn about myself with this disease even though they were so young. They would see me soon enough with stories to tell and share about all the wonderful things I learned. They would meet my new friends at the end of three weeks and be ever-so-glad for me to get home once again.

Ahh, what a life! However, my personal happiness was overshadowed by the disappearance of my father in my life, during this same time period. This was my father whom I would not see again until I was 18 years old. That was part of the drama I mentioned earlier as well as it being another story. Bad dreams awoke me many nights in tears, my camp counselors thinking I was having a convulsion when I was dreaming about my father being lost. He didn’t know where I was! I didn’t know where he was! How was he going to find me? How was he going to know that I was all right? My concerns were negated, swept up in a world of day-to-day survival.

Those three weeks of each year from July to August I spent in an environment of a grassed carpet hugged with trees and the awakening smell of pine. To this day, that natural fragrance of pine with its beauty remains a pleasant one, enlightening wonderful memories. The smell of pine instantaneously brings me back to camp.

Each glorious day was a learning experience. Not only did I learn about the disease in my body, but I also learned that diabetes wasn’t just my disease. Other kids had it. These other kids had to do the same routine each day. The same routine as I did! How awesome! These other kids had to take insulin shots and pee in a cup and share living space and eat at the same table with rigorous dietary needs. We all learned to sing songs such as “This Little Light of Mine,” “Abbalaba Gabbalaba Goobala Beesay,” “Oh Mister Moon,” and too many more. My compatriots reading this book can attest to the other songs, I’m sure.

With the lavatory task accomplished for the time being, I and all of my new friends scurried as quickly as possible back to our cabins to quickly dress for the day and then proceed to the infirmary for our morning insulin shots. As breakfast was diligently served at 8:00am in the mess hall each morning, dressing quickly and getting your shot was a prerequisite to eating.

It was there, in the CBC camp ground infirmary where I learned to give myself an insulin shot. Having to climb a set of stairs to gain entrance into this facility, I was always greeted by one or two nurses. You could pick them out immediately with their white uniforms and white shoes. At that age, I knew all too well what a nurse looked like.

Similar to my cabin, this building also had no foundation and rested upon six stilts. The nurses’ sleeping quarters were in the back, to the left of the entrance. To the right, there was a narrow hall where I could see two other rooms, one on the left and one on the right. In the center inside the entry way, there were shelves and shelves of medical supplies lining the walls: boxes of syringes, boxes of alcohol swabs, boxed gauzes and band-aids of varying shapes and sizes, first aid kits, refrigerators, and everything a medical staff would need to do whatever they were required to do.

A part of every morning routine, after urine testing and dressing, involved every single child to march up the steps to the infirmary, state her name, be handed a filled syringe, and inject herself. Standing behind what I remember as a very long table, the two nurses greeted me and asked me “Are you ready, Andy?” This table was full of needles (filled insulin syringes). There were many of them, lined up one after the other with a name at each needle. One of the nurses picked up one of the syringes saying “Here you go, Andy. Have a seat right over there and I’ll help you give it to yourself.” I knew this was coming. I had heard a few of the other girls exclaim how they had given themselves their shots and how it was no big deal.

Not knowing how to do this beforehand, one of the nurse’s had been doing it for me. However, that was short lived. There came that day when I was told “no breakfast until you give yourself a shot!”  Yikes! The pressure was on. I was told to decide where I wanted to put it, “maybe your thigh would be easiest. Sit over here,” the nurse said.

I sat across from the doorway, thinking of a way to escape. I did not want to do this! Tutored beforehand on the process with the use of an orange, I pinched some thigh meat with my left hand, held the syringe with my right hand, and – it took me the longest of ten minutes to do this! – I held my breath, plunged the injection into my top left thigh, pressed the lever to inject the insulin, pulled it out, and breathed. Oh my gosh, what a feeling. Not just of pride, but relief. My audience, the two attending nurses, were as anxious and concerned as I. They clapped and congratulated me telling me what a good job I did, what a good girl I was! Phew! That is a great big deal when you are six year old!

With that accomplishment forever fastened in my knickers, I was off and running up to the “mess hall” for breakfast. Sometimes that hill seemed forever to climb due to a low blood glucose level or over exertion of exercise depending on time of day. Too many times I witnessed more than one child eating before the rest of us. That was due to an “insulin reaction,” which  requires food or a balanced sustenance quickened through liquid glucose for the insulin to act upon. The immediate use of “coke syrup” was available as well for such occasions. Thick and terribly sweet, I recall the nastiness of having to endure this treatment. It was necessary. An approximate twenty minutes would revive the child to her original personality.

Upon entering this two-room building, there was table after table of excitedly and happy talking children while breakfast scents of eggs, dry cereal, hot cereal, fresh fruit, milk and juice surrounded the children and councilors. The first area off to the left of the entrance was the kitchen. An oversized metal counter used for food serving was open to the diners. It took me a few minutes to locate my cabins’ table and its members who were already seated along with our councilors. “Andy, we’re over here!” exclaimed all of them in intervals. “Hurry up, we’re hungry. Don’t let it get cold!” They waited for me! I was flattered. Climbing over the picnic bench that was assigned to our cabin, I sat and had to wait again. With breakfast foods displayed on the picnic-styled tables along with a food-weighing scale, my senses drooled with anticipation.  A food scale, of course, was purposely and distinctly used for each child’s required caloric intake. Each entrée was separately matched to each of eighty-four campers, and oftentimes both of their diabetic councilors. It was up to the two councilors assigned to each cabin to weigh each child’s food portion before themselves.

With that done, we all, the whole room, had to wait to say grace together. This occurred over each and every meal, every day. Respect was given.

During breakfast, councilors told us our daily schedules: activities for the day were discussed with their appropriate times; the required and intermittent snacks twice a day and where to get them; daily mail call; and whatever else to expect. Each camper and her cabin mates met again at lunch and dinner with the councilors reminding us of afternoon activities. There was a choice of swimming, badminton, volley ball, tennis, basketball, hiking, making crafts, or writing letters home. Movement was constant with these activities scheduled by age group, ability and appropriateness.  Learn, learn, learn.

Bright young adult faces belonging to adolescent campers, known as “CITs” (Councilors in Training) greeted each and every camper throughout the day, directing where a child should be as well as teaching many, like me, how to perform a certain activity. They were guardian angels! For instance, I didn’t know how to play badminton until taught; I didn’t know how to swim until taught; or how to row a boat or handle a canoe. It was the same with all the activities I participated in.

Unbeknownst to newcomers at the time, like me, we eventually became the soldiers of diabetes. Our examples were the older girls. They had already been living with this routine to assist in their own disease.

Another of many wonderful experiences was the every-evening-campfire. These occurred before bed or “lights out” as the counselors called it. We were encouraged to hold hands in a huge circle inclusive all campers, all councilors, most of the medical and administrative staffs. Singing out loud, very loud and together, constituted a  main theme. Conversations about the days’ occurrences took place with the expectations of what tomorrow would bring. Many, if not all, of the CIT’s gave their learned reports of a days’ event and updates of things to come such as a volleyball game or a hike to a certain area. It was practice in socialization with each other. Sometimes the boys in the Joslin Camp (named after Dr. Elliott P. Joslin) would participate in this affair.

We all learned to be crafty, creative, and imaginative human beings. It was our childhood. We learned to look forward to a productive life. We were, separately and together, continuously and eagerly encouraged toward progression, individually and socially.

Just the thought that possibilities were available was awesome! Unfathomable! Uncharted territories of the heart, mind, and soul!

One summer, stationed in the infirmary, was the familiar face of my doctor, my beloved Dr. Charles Graham. I couldn’t believe it! He never mentioned a thing when I saw him last just a few weeks ago.  After all, I had to see him before being able to come to camp in order to get all checked out properly with a healthy permission slip. I bet he wanted to surprise me. Well, he did! He was a delightfully humorous man with a southern accent, and had been the overseer of my disease for a few years already at this time. I remember being totally surprised and enthralled at his being there at CBC one summer. He was the doctor ‘in charge.’ But it wasn’t just me he had to attend to. I was a bit jealous when I saw him speaking to another of the girls, or when he played on a volley team other than mine.

That particular summer, I was 12 years old. With his knowledge and guidance, my caloric intake was increased, allowing me to gain some weight and “fill out” more as I entered puberty.

I vividly recall the day that that summer session ended. My mother arrived to pick me up, my younger siblings in tow. As soon as she saw me in front of the “Lakeside Cabin” where I lived for those three weeks, she was startled at the weight I gained. I was happy to see her and my brother and two younger sisters. However, she was not happy to see me in this chubby state. The Sunday dress I had packed and was wearing for their arrival, a sheer, empire-waisted, white and brown number with brown polka dots, was a bit tight. I was embarrassed

After marching to the infirmary to get an explanation from Dr. Graham, whom she was surprised to see for herself, she settled down and concurred with his opinion. I needed more food to counteract the insulin and exercise I was getting. I was growing, developing into a young woman. Mom just had to face reality. Dr. Graham was the one to have repeatedly lead her to it. For a time, he was my spokesperson. He never knew it, but I always wished he was my father.

I was 13 when finally able to experience the tented area. This area was darker and cooler due to the canvassing overhang of the surrounding pine tree limbs. The smell – oh that luscious early morning wet pine smell – once again greeted me each day and remained throughout. So clean, so fresh.

Treated as an older camper, some of the rules changed, the daily schedules changed, responsibilities were aloft and implied. I felt this implication from being an older sister at home. No longer were pee pots carried for morning fasts. That would have been disastrous through a dark, damp wood at 7am. As a group of approximately eight teenage girls, it took at least fifteen minutes for all of us to make it out of the wood into the light at paths’ end, across the asphalt road, through the dewy wet lawn near the mess hall, down the hill past the infirmary, only to arrive at the lavatory. Pajama clad, our pee pots awaited us in a neat and designated row in the lavatory. The routine was the same: pee in pot, bring to counter for testing, slosh through the morning slop left by the younger kids, wash hands, hike back up the hill for shots, and then cross the still-wet-crushed-to-mud-lawn to the mess hall. I quickly learned that wearing slippers was out of the question.  Put on the sneakers as soon as you are awakened! Add the ingredient of languor to this daily process due to our ages. Teenagers, after all, do not move quickly.

Remaining in our pajamas through breakfast, as a team once again, we became listeners and watchers. But we were also watched – by young eyes – in our disarray. The little kids loved us and wanted to grow up, not necessarily to be like us with our “big girl privileges,” but just to be able grow up with this disease. We were now supposed to be good examples.

For this experience, part of my personal packing gear included a bigger flashlight, extra batteries and a sleeping bag. I was cool, the envy of my siblings, at least. Specially purchased items without it being my birthday or Christmas were pretty rare in this family’s budget!

Nearby, across the main entrance road and down about a quarter-of-a-mile, there was a small area resembling a chapel with approximately twenty wooden benches – two rows of ten benches each on each side of a wooden podium. With the sky as the roof, religious services were respectfully held here. After all, diversification without discrimination was the norm. Religious beliefs were respected and taken into account for the betterment of each person, be it child or adult. In later years, and due to the deterioration and vandalism of this chapel, services were held in the original barn on the property.

 

   The CBC pond is a man-made pond in close proximity to this first “summer home” (“Squirrel’s Nest”) where my young colleagues and I learned to swim. First having to hold your breath, placing one’s face in the water and blowing bubbles thereafter lead to many years of safe exercise in any body of water. We were 5 and 6 years old. As natural as natural can be, dog paddling was accomplished. At the end of the semester, each of us earned and received a “patch” for this, our proud accomplishment. We diabetics could swim! Other patches of accomplishment were also handed out, as deserved, for volley ball, tennis, badminton, track, archery, basketball, canoeing, row boating, sailing, etc. Through the years, I received one or two of each patch, delighted with myself to be able to participate in such activities.

Although the pond was full of leeches, they didn’t stop any campers or their counselors from swimming. Hot and heavily humid summer days necessitated a swimming hole, any swimming hole!

I vividly recall screams from one youngster to another about a leech being on their body. Counselors in close proximity would always rush with a book of matches to burn off the sucker! Ah, memories. This happened to the adults as well, but the drama wasn’t as peaked. I’ve witnessed, time and time again, another counselor purposely scoping the body of another counselor with matches in hand. Many times those matches were put to good use.

But the pond was also used for canoe and row–boat lessons. This was the first time I was ever in either type of boat. I found rowing to be more difficult than paddling. However, my adventurous spirit would never hesitate to get into either vehicle, especially once I learned how to swim. Such exercise was encouraged, usually after breakfast, with a paddle or row on the outer right edges of the pond,

 

 

under the walking bridge, and back again via the other side.  Gosh, that was the best! Both activities I have continued into my adult life.

During the closing engagements of many of my three-week stays, one counselor volunteered to swim the length of the pond with a lit torch in her hand. This task was wonderfully and amazingly accomplished. And, as always, afterwards she was physically scanned for the “attack of the leeches.” Such a feat encouraged me to think that “I could do that!” It was greatly encouraging.

 

   With the volleyball net conveniently located across from our cabin, my first introduction to this sport began. I recall not being the strongest of players, but I put my heart into it. Oftentimes, tournaments and “Olympics” were held upon occasion as an exciting summer afternoon event. Personally, this was my first introduction to competition of any sort. Most often, one cabin competed against another. This initially formed a team spirit and practice before children from other camps were bussed to ours, or vice versa, for such events. When we CBC campers traveled, coolers of supplies were in tow holding food and medicine. It was more fun to watch the counselors compete against each other as each camper routed for her cabin captain.

For example, one such Olympic memory involved my running track when I was about 11 years old. Through constant encouragement and practice, I ran the 100-yard dash in 14.7 seconds. That accomplishment was my entrance into that physical race. However, I did not win. Another girl from another camp who was larger and stronger than I won that race.

Further introductions into how to build a fire with rocks and twigs, canoeing, sailing, leather and beaded craft making, playing tennis, basketball, softball, and so on were fashioned for each age group. Once getting home, I always brought my mother a present I had made in the “Craft Cabin.”

Special outings, always on a Sunday, were spent at Dr. Elliot P. Joslin’s home in North Oxford, Massachusetts. His brief autobiography follows:

“Elliott Proctor Joslin, M.D. (6 June186928 January1962) was the first doctor in the United States to specialize in diabetes and was the founder of today’s Joslin Diabetes Center. He was the first to advocate for teaching patients to care for their own diabetes, an approach now commonly referred to as “DSME” or Diabetes Self-Management Education. He is also a recognized pioneer in glucose management, identifying that tight glucose control leads to fewer and less extreme complications.

“He was born in 1869 in Oxford, Massachusetts and educated at Leicester Academy, Yale College and Harvard Medical School.

“Joslin first became interested in diabetes while attending Yale, when his aunt was diagnosed with the disease. At the time, diabetes was considered an obscure disease, with no cure and little hope. He made diabetes his focus while attending Harvard Medical School, winning the Boylston Society prize for work later published as the book The Pathology of Diabetes Mellitus.

“His postgraduate training was at Massachusetts General Hospital, and he also studied with leading researchers in metabolism from Germany and Austria before starting a private medical practice in Boston’s Back Bay in 1898.

“In 1908, in conjunction with physiologist Francis G. Benedict, Joslin carried out extensive metabolic balance studies examining fasting and feeding in patients with varying severities of diabetes. His findings would help to validate the observations of Frederick Madison Allen regarding the benefit of carbohydrate- and calorie-restricted diets. The patients were admitted to units at New England Deaconess Hospital, helping to initiate a program to help train nurses to supervise the rigorous diet program.

 

“Joslin included the findings from 1,000 of his own cases in his 1916 monograph The Treatment of Diabetes Mellitus. Here he noted a 20 percent decrease in the mortality of patients after instituting a program of diet and exercise. This physician’s handbook had 10 more editions in his lifetime and established Dr. Joslin as a world leader in diabetes. “Two years later, Dr. Joslin wrote Diabetic Manual — for the Doctor and Patient detailing what patients could do to take control of their disease. This was the first diabetes patient handbook and became a best seller. There have been 14 editions of this pioneering patient handbook, and a version is still published today by the Joslin Diabetes Center under the title The Joslin Guide to Diabetes.

“When insulin became available as therapy in 1922, Joslin’s corps of nurses became the forerunners of certified diabetes educators, providing instruction in diet, exercise, foot care and insulin dosing, and established camps for children with diabetes throughout New England.

 

“Dr. Joslin always adopted a multi-disciplinary approach, working with nurses in education, surgeons and podiatrists for limb salvage and foot care, pathologists for descriptions of complications and obstetricians for assessment of fetal risk in diabetic pregnancy. The first hospital blood glucose monitoring system for pre-meal testing was developed under his direction in 1940, and was the forerunner of modern home-monitoring systems.

 

“Dr. Joslin was also the first to name diabetes as a serious public health issue. Just after WWII, he expressed concern to the Surgeon General of the U.S. Public Health Service that diabetes was an epidemic and challenged the government to do a study in the town of his birthplace, Oxford, Massachusetts. The study was started in 1946 and carried out over the next 20 years. The results would later confirm Joslin’s fear that the incidence of diabetes in the United States was approaching epidemic proportions. He has been named as being, along with Frederick Madison Allen, one of the two leading diabetologists from the period between 1910 and 1920.

 

“In 1952, Joslin’s group practice became officially known as the Joslin Clinic. In 1956, the office was moved to its current location at One Joslin Place in Boston. Joslin Clinic was the world’s first diabetes care facility and today maintains its place as the largest diabetes clinic in the world.

 

Dr. Joslin was adamant in his position that good glucose control, achieved through a restricted carbohydrate diet, exercise, and frequent testing and insulin adjustment, would prevent complications. This was debated for decades by other endocrinologists and scientists, and the American Diabetes Association was divided on this subject from its inception. Joslin’s approach was not validated until 30 years after his death, when in 1993, a 10-year study, “The Diabetes Control and Complications Trial Report” was published in the prestigious New England Journal of Medicine. “This study demonstrated that the onset of diabetes complications was delayed by tight glucose control, something Joslin had argued decades prior.

 

“Dr. Joslin died in his sleep on 29 January1962 in Brookline, Massachusetts.” (Retrieved from:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elliott_P._Joslin.)

 

There were occasions during my camping sessions when all campers and most of the staff were bussed to Dr. Joslin’s spacious family farm estate in North Oxford. The estate entrance itself was as delightful as a fairy tale. The private dirt roadway leading to the spacious home was neatly lined with tree after tree, providing a coolly shaded welcome on the hot Sunday afternoons that I was there. We children cajoled him and his wife and staff with camp songs, walked the vast and beauteous grounds, visited with the geese, pigs, cows, horses and whatever else was available. The 3:00 afternoon snack of watermelon slices were graciously passed all around. I had never seen so many watermelons in my life since those days and probably never will. It is a tremendously happy memory!

I further recall my very first summer visiting the farm, impressionistic and naïve as I was. I was chided into milking a cow.  Having yielded to my fellow campers’ teasing remarks, I was gently guided by a ranch-hand to sit upon a small wooden stool aside a cow. He softly explained and showed me at the same time how to gently and cautiously grab a nipple on the cow’s udder and squeeze. My audience was silenced, enthralled that I could do this.

At one point, I squeezed too hard, causing the cow to shift her weight. This, in turn, caused me to squirt milk in my face.  Laughter ensued by me and my audience. However, “Mrs. Cow” so-called turned her big head towards me, looked at me, and wagged her tail in my face, wiping away the spilt milk. I couldn’t believe it! I was in awe along with all the other kids who were now screaming to “Let me! Let me!” Well, that was that for the farm hand. No other child that day was allowed to milk Mrs. Cow.

Taken from “My Diabetic Soul – An Autobiography” by A. K. Buckroth

Symbols, Symbols Everywhere!

Simply, visual symbols are a representation of  something.  Whether you realize it or not, humans young and old are bombarded by symbols day in and day out.  For instance, drivers are encumbered with symbols as you can imagine.  I won’t even begin to list them here!  However, my favorites are the bright yellow square placcards that are tightly screwed to poles on the side of a road displaying a picture of a dancing deer or the ones with people holding hands.  Although I’ve never seen a dancing deer in the road, I know what it means = watch out for deer on the road.  And the people holding hands is easily discernible as well.

Symbols in pictures can tell a brief – even personal – story.  For example, each division of our United States Military has a colorful symbol.  As soon as most of us see it, we know what it represents.  https://www.google.com/search?q=united+states+military+symbols&hl=en&tbo=u&tbm=isch&source=univ&sa=X&ei=VOnlUOGtEev4igKl74DIDw&ved=0CEcQsAQ&biw=1024&bih=626.  Any one or a number of these brings about an emotion, a memory, a thought.

Logos (logoes?) and icons are synonymous with symbols.  Test yourself!

The medical community of the world is also explosive with symbols:  http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Category:Medical_symbols.  My favorite is that of the Blue Heel Society: http://blueheelsociety.blogspot.com/p/photos.html.

Admirable as our human efforts are, it takes each and every one of us not a half a second to realize the meaning of a visual symbol.  Non-visual symbols are distinct as well.  Take body language.  A finger in the ear or nose tells me something = stay away from that person!  A hand to the heart or throat, etc., is expressive.  Think about it.

Can you think of any symbol that is unusual or unfamiliar or least used?  If so, please share.

Just sayin’….

A. K. Buckroth

 

 

Hibernating Christmas

It’s time, people.  It’s time to put Christmas, 2012, away.  I hate to admit it – or go through the rigorous endeavors of having to do it – but it must be done.

Whichever room I happen to be in at the moment is where I shall begin.  The Christmas quilt is first to be laundered, folded and packed away in an air tight, zippered bag.  Decorative Christmas pillows go through the same process.

Hm.  Living room.  Stockings come away from the mantel first, that’s easy.  Added to the Christmas tree skirt, hat, and stockings with their personal decorative hangers, they await packing in a pile on the floor.  Decorative kitchen and bath hand towels will be an addition after being used to wipe down kitchen counters, refrigerator, dining room table and such.  Heck, they make good cleaning cloths!  With the hot pan holders, cloth napkins and tablecloths, linens become one in the same box.  Add a few moth balls, and I’m happy.

The trees.  There are two of these – one inside, one out.  Ugh.  This task takes more than a few days.  The outside tree can wait a few more days.  After all, I did a beautiful job decorating it if I say so myself.  My neighbors remain in awe.  And I rather like it myself, so it can stay decorated a little longer.  Truly, I do not look forward to dragging out the step stool to accomplish this task.  A poignant blue spruce, planted in April of 2005, is now a beautiful and healthy six feet tall on our property’s edge.   Part of this task involves removing multiples of red ribbons, bows, 6″ and 8″ glass bulbs, white and gold beaded garland and tinsel.  Well, maybe the tinsel can remain to blow in the wind.  It sparkles nicely.

The four window wreaths can wait a little longer along with the colorful display of roof lights.  The lights don’t blink, thank goodness.  Blinking lights are tortuous!

The inside tree becomes undressed a little at a time in passing.  A novel bulb here, a noel bell there, etc., will be removed – sooner or later.  Their Christmas box stands in the hall awaiting all members.  The ‘precious’ artifacts from decades past will remain until the very last.

For instance, the hand blown and painted glass balls from Poland are given special attention due to their delicate nature.  Or the ever-so-delicate penguin ornament, a gift from a precious friend; the ever-so-delicate Hawaiian shirt ornaments, remembrance of a trip to Hawaii; in addition to the crystal chimes in memory of our visit to the Westwood Crystal Manufacturing Plant in Ireland.  Ah, such glory!  Not only do they require more attentive packing and sealing, but they are most joyous – personal.

Included in this protective box are the most favorite and special ones – you know, the ones that your kids made in grade school.  They will hibernate with the ones from Europe those long years ago.  Mm mm, good memories.

After laundering with other items, the tree skirt is folded and added to the Christmas linen box, so labeled.  The porcelain, multi-character nativity and its scenery needs extra loving care.  Each piece of fifteen symbolic reputations are ever-so-carefully wrapped in cloth, secured with packing tape, placed in separate styrofoam containers, laid in a plastic padded and sealed box.  ‘Rubbermaid’ came in handy for this project and is easily recognized in blue.

Once the packing boxes are tightly closed with refreshed labels, they are placed one atop the other, awaiting outdoor shed placement.

Ah, I’m tired now.  Just thinking and planning all this as I share it with you means another 2012 goal has been accomplished!  Now, off to getting it done…

Happy 2013!

A. K. Buckroth

 

“OCCLUSION DETECTED, OCCLUSION DETECTED”

For diabetes caregivers, friends, family members and, of course, T1 AND T2 diabetics, this article regards one of many operational defects involved with having to wear an insulin pump.  Let me [try] to familiarize this phrase for you: “Occlusion Detected.”

Occlusion plainly means “blockage” – something has been blocked. “To close or shut off” is the printed definition in The American Heritage Dictionary.  In this case, the delivery of insulin through the tubing (infusion set) of an insulin pump into a subcutaneous (just beneath the skin) area of the body has been stopped.  The reasons depend upon a number of variables that I will momentarily address.

I began wearing a name brand insulin pump, Disetronic, in 1996.  Much to my dismay, approximately four years later, the Disetronic Company was ‘bought out’ by another insulin pump provider known as AccuChek.  (https://www.accu-chekinsulinpumps.com/ipus/.)  In a state of mourning, I did not want AccuChek.  I was being forced into using their product.  I did not like the aggressive attitude of the sales person whom was assigned to my case.  Therefore, negative plus negative equals zero in my book.  However, because I had a multiple-year warranty contract in existence with Disetronic, I had to get an AccuChek brand, initiating another contract, or purchase one on my own for $5k without medical insurance assistance, or submit to their rules.  I submitted.

The transfer from the usage of one pump to the other was quick.  I learned the machinations of this new pump and smoothly glided along in heels.

After a few years of use, this pump failed.  I did not aggravate it on purpose!  We actually befriended each other, so to speak, and I used it night and day caring for it as directed.  A replacement was sent to me.  Occlusions continued.  And continued.  These repeated occlusions decidedly and ultimately cancelled the contract.  With the immediate assistance of an endocrinologist at the time, the MedtronicMinimed brand and company was highly recommended (http://www.medtronicdiabetes.com/products) and replaced the AccuChek.  The year is 1998.

I conceded with the fact that my medical insurance would pay the expenses.  Initial adjustments went along smoothly, once again.  After all, wearing an insulin pump 24/7 was better than having to physically inject insulin multiple times per day.  Or was it?  Hmm…

Oh, about ten days into wearing this particular pump, one early morning about 7:00am, I was washing my face, getting ready for the day.  Well, a drop of water – a single drop – landed on the pump.  I wiped it off and proceeded with my day.

MANY hours later, just before 10:oopm, my blood sugar was irregularly high for no apparent reason.  I bolused and continued to bolus until 4:00am.  My blood sugar measurements were now past the 400mg/dc mark!  Yes, highly alarming, frightening and sickening.  There was no Occlusion alarm – or any other type of alarm!

Confused and vomitous, I drove myself to the nearby hospital.  I was checked in with ketoacidosis and remained there for four days with the precise goal of stabilizing my blood sugar levels.  (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diabetic_ketoacidosis.)

In my numerous decades of living with diabetes, I have NEVER had ketoacidosis.  I NEVER want to be in that state again.

While I recuperated in the hospital, my attending physician had expressed alarm at not being able to get through to a MiniMed representative.  He adamantly wanted me to get back on the insulin pump, being familiar with an insulin pumps’ best-diabetes-control-practices.

To shorten this part of the story, this doctor told me that he had to threaten the MiniMed company with a lawsuit in order to get me an immediate (same-day-air) insulin pump delivered to the hospital.  Finally, it was done.  It arrived.  You might have thought it was Christmas in July!   Once he excitedly brought it to me, I knew exactly what to do as he watched me go through the processes of initializing, programming and inserting the infusion set (a stainless steel needle thinner than the stainless steel head of a thumb tack) into my tummy area.  That night, I was watched closely, carefully taken care of and grateful to not only be alive, but especially to the efforts of my attending physician.  I was released that fourth day.

Reviewing all this drama with my endocrinologist, I practically begged him to get me off this thing.  Get me another pump.  I no longer trusted the MiniMed brand name.  Asking me what I preferred, I answered “Disetronic.  I had been on their pump for four years without a problem.  I want to go back.”  “You can’t,” he said.  “They are no longer in business.  You’ll have to use the AccuChek again with their updated model.”

Okay, this scenario didn’t last too long.  I ended up with an Animas model that I utilize to this day – when it works.  You see, in the past 2 1/2 years since I began with this model, it has been replaced 7 – yes, seven – times!  It has occluded at least every three days.  Once it starts there is no stopping it.  Changing the infusion site, nor changing the cartridge, nor changing the battery has helped.  Over and over and over again.  June, 2012, was the last replacement.

All in all, I’ve used four different brands of insulin pumps over the last sixteen years.  Initially paying out-of-pocket for my first insulin pump, the followers were cost-effective and covered through my medical insurance, each with a four-year warranty contract.   That’s all fine and well for the company, but it screws up my mind, body and routine horribly when such chaos strikes. You see, without the pump, I have to resort to six injections per day, the same time every day, using two different insulins – a short acting type and a long acting one – in order to maintain my life.  I have since learned to travel with these insulins whether I am attached to the pump or not.   It is my “Plan B,” my emergency back-up plan.

The insulin vials with syringes are packed in a cooler of ice along with juices and crackers. I am no longer shy about bringing the cooler with me wherever I need to be, conducting business as usual.  My blood sugar readings tell me what I need to do: take insulin or get juice.  I test my blood sugar 8 – 10 times a day. Discretion is always used.

For instance, recently re-attaching myself and wearing the thing for three days, after being without the pump for three weeks due to my bad attitude that leads to depression and awaiting replacement product from the company, the pump is presently alarming once again with a reading “Occlusion, Occlusion.” This means the insulin is stuck and can’t deliver through the tubing (aka: infusion set). Such instances ALWAYS happen in the wee hours of any morning or during a speaking engagement. It happened yesterday afternoon at a book signing. The alarm is LOUD and attracts attention! Alas, fatigue, depression, no energy, ho-hum, bad attitude.

When in public, I discreetly excuse myself, go into the restroom – or my car – and fix the situation. Fixing entails one of three decisive procedures: either (a.) “priming” the pump (pressing one of the buttons to pass about 10 units of insulin through the tubing to clear it) or (b.) removing, then re-attaching the infusion set to another body site or (c.) completely removing the darn thing and resorting to injections.

It’s a machine. I am a cyborg and take care of it and me as time and circumstances avail. Ugh. Often embarrassing and often uncomfortable.

Contacting the various company(ies) about problems has been frustrating. You see, the technicians on the other end of the line ALWAYS blame me for the machines’ malfunctions.  Either I didn’t tighten the screw heads on one end or the other, or I put in the wrong battery, or I didn’t expirate the cartridge, or (and this is the best one that I have repeatedly been told) “you have too much scar tissue.” Duh.  No kidding.  I’ve been diabetic for 53 – yes, fifty-three – years!

The variables are non-stop.

2012 – Please pray for a cure.  This expensive disease is chronic, baffling and tiring.

Truly, A. . Buckroth (at Amazon.com).

Hello world!

“Welcome to WordPress. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!”  That’s what I was told to do many years ago when my first book was published.

“Hmm,” I told myself.  “What do I write? What would the general public all over the world want to hear/learn/read from little old me?”

Overall, I’ve shared different stories, expecially those involving being a T1D (Type One Diabetic) for 58 years.  Yep, 58 years.  But my writings have not been limited to that subject matter.  You’ll be glad to know that I share other meaningful parts of my life with you as well.

Check them out.  Also, take a peak at www.mydiabeticsoul.com.  Other learning and informative writing works are listed there and available for your reading pleasure.

Just sayin’…A. K. Buckroth.